Magic Shows and Illusions

Illusions have always been one of my favorite things. Watch a magic show and see a rabbit get pulled out of a hat or a person completely disappear. The key to a good illusion is to get the audience to see what you want them to see. Get them to look at your right hand when they should be watching your left.

Sometimes my life feels like a magic show. I don’t ever seem to know what’s really going on and I’m never paying attention to what I should be focusing on. I’m like that person that is always babbling about how it’s not real. It’s fake. You shouldn’t be fooled. And yet, at the show, I still don’t see what’s happening. I know it’s an illusion. I know that if I looked past all the grandeur I would be able to see what I’m suppose to be seeing. Yet here I am, caught up in the distractions.

I could give excuse after excuse as to why I am so distracted. My Dad is dying. My brother is dying. I’m moving 1,000 miles away in two months. I have so much to do before I leave. And of course, all the doubts in my head… Am I ready? I’m probably going to fail. Are the people I’m going to live with still going to even want to acknowledge my existence at the end of the year? What if I can’t do it? What if I fail? What if? What if? What if?

These worries. These shadows. These illusions. They are consuming me. I fight them with all my might. But I am too weak. How do you fight looking at your Dad and thinking, “Dear God, please let him be here when I come home.” Or visiting your brother because you may never see him again. How do you fight of the feeling of defeat when you feel like you are running out of time? And what are you suppose to do when your biggest fear is that others will see you the way you see yourself?

I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you. Ephesians 1:18

Look past the illusion.

It’s funny the things God will use to help you see past the illusion. Maybe it’s reaching a goal you didn’t think you would reach. Or that person you always feel inferior to telling you that they feel the same way you do. They may not even realize that you feel that way too. Either way, Thank God for breaking that illusion.

Because on the other side of that illusion is a miracle. On the other side of that illusion is God doing amazing things in your life. Whether it’s teaching you to wait or telling you it’s time to move.

I can’t say that the looking past the illusion is going to cure my Dad of his cancer. Or that my brother will get a miracle. Or that I’ll have the same friends this time next year. What breaking the illusion does is let you see God. It breaks away any feeling of distance you felt between you and God. Because suddenly, He is right there. Working away. Making sure everything turns out right.

God is more than the cancer, more than the calander, or even the distance. God is more than the people or the fear. I’m giving it all to God. God is making things happen. Even when I don’t see it. Even when I don’t feel it. God is working and with Him all things are possible. Even a little thing like life.

 

 

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Reflecting

Reflecting

It is a time honored tradition that at the beginning of every year my family looks back and discusses some major things we learned through the year. This year was very rich in giving us life lessons. There was a lot of bad, but hey, how else do we learn?

Though this year has been rough, there have been some good things. A couple of personal triumphs. This year was the first year I have been excited for Christmas in seven years. There had been an incident on Christmas morning that kind of ruined Christmas for me. I also FINALLY and COMPLETELY forgave my big brother. Those are stories for another time, so we’ll leave it at ‘praise God!’ And I survived my sixteenth year! Yay! Tomorrow’s my bday!

The lessons we learned this year are innumerable. But I have got the main ones down. So here are our top five lessons of the year.

  1. God promises to help us carry our load. He doesn’t expect us to carry it alone.
  2. It doesn’t matter how much darkness surrounds you, God always gives an opportunity for light to help see. You just have to choose to turn on the lamp.
  3. God’s plans are not our plans. He has the whole picture. We only see a little bit. One day we will be thankful for the 2015 year. Because we will see how it was part of the beautiful tapestry.
  4. God is good all the time. And all the time God is good. Even when…
  5. Seasons of life pass. Sometimes it’s really hard to let go.

Our lessons were not necessarily taught easily. But they sure were taught well. He has a plan. Faith, Trust, and a whole lot of Jesus.

So ends this chapter in our life. Goodbye 2015! May you live long in our memories!

Hello 2016! It’s time to see what you have in store for us! May it be a great adventure!

What are your top five lessons of 2015?

HAPPY NEW YEAR! GOD BLESS!